beats & rests
may i never lose my youth and if i do, may i be forgettable.
Feb 9th, 2010 @ 9:54 pm
If I stand too close I might fall in but if I’m too far gone I’ll never win
If you believe in me I might just want to spend some time with you again
I’m afraid I tend to disappear into an anxious state when you draw near
There is no reasoning; it’s quite a silly thing but it’s the way I’ve been for years
So I will understand if you don’t stay
They say I’m great at first but then the magic fades
Into an awful hue of dismal views and pessimistic attitude
@ 5:43 pm
i'm so over this week already.
i was supposed to go to the doctor today but i had to reschedule due to a last minute staffing issue at work. (when do we not have staffing issues? -_-) so i changed my appointment to tomorrow and then was told that i have to reschedule it once again. you know, how about you pull the new girl from class because i’m pretty sure that finding out what’s wrong with me is just a little more important. i’m so sick of this garbage. i really need to find a new job.
Feb 8th, 2010 @ 8:20 pm
[via geniejoo]
Miss this amazing lifestyle- either way, I am grateful to even know them and even more thankful and lucky to call them friends.
2004 will forever be one of my favorite years bc of these two ladies right here.
<3
Reblogged from baby girl, twist away.
Feb 7th, 2010 @ 10:12 pm
an open letter
it’s been a really rough couple of weeks for me. from not sleeping to sleeping but not feeling like it, to having blood drawn and feeling horrible, to taking a prescription sleep aid that doesn’t help, to being told that all my lab work is “normal.” but it’s obvious that something is wrong.
it’s times like these when you realize who cares and who doesn’t. a few people have taken the time to ask how i’m feeling and not the usual “hi, how are you?” where the typical “i’m fine” response is expected.
i don’t say it nearly enough, but i love each an every one of you. i really do. i am truly blessed have people who care so much in my life, even though most of the time i probably don’t deserve any of you.
i know i’m not always the greatest friend. i don’t make enough of an effort a lot of the time. i’m distant and never open up easily. it’s like pulling teeth trying to get me to talk at times. sometimes i don’t fight hard enough to keep people in my life. and when i’m not feeling well, it’s even worse.
but i appreciate the people i call friends. and more than that, i love you and consider you family. i know if i ever need anything that i can call any one of you and you’ll be there for me. and that’s what friendship is all about.
so, thank you for taking the time to ask how i am. thank you for putting up with me and not getting mad when i cancel plans. you’re the reason i keep pushing through every day even though it would be easier to just call in sick to life.
Feb 6th, 2010 @ 3:04 pm
I always knew I had the answer
But I never understood the question
Indoor living lacerated to the bone
And now we’ve realigned the edges
I’m doing very well, thank you
All this empathy is starting to wear me down
I wish I was someone else
Feb 5th, 2010 @ 9:19 pm
from here
PFC Scott G. Barnett Resident of Martinez PFC Scott Garland Barnett, 24, died January 28, 2010 in Iraq where he served his country with the US Army in the 412th Aviation Support Battalion, 12th Combat Aviation Brigade. Scott, a resident of Martinez, was born in Walnut Creek and was a former Concord resident. He attended Concord High School and Olympic Continuation School before enlisting in the US Army. As a youth, Scott played baseball with the Challenge Baseball League. Scouting was a big part of Scott’s early years. He was awarded the Order of Arrow and Eagle Scout Awards as well as being a part of JLT Program. He was an active member of Boy Scout Troupe #1994. Scott also served with the US Army in Germany. He is survived by his wife, Nichole (Nikki) Barnett; mother, Lori Barnett; father, Garland (Gary) Barnett; sister, Rebecca Ingram; grandmother, Marilyn Webb; niece Taliah Ingram and aunt, Darlene Gilchrist. Scott is also survived by many other relatives and friends. Visitation will be 2:00-4:00pm on Sunday, February 7, 2010, Ouimet Bros. Chapel, 4125 Clayton Rd., Concord. Funeral Service will be held Monday, February 8, 2010 at 11:00am at St. Bonaventure Church, 5562 Clayton Road, Concord. Private interment will be in Sacramento Valley National Cemetery, Dixon. Memorials may be made to the Scouting Program, Boy Scout Troupe #1994, 4038 Poplar Avenue, Concord, CA 94521; or to Guardian Angels For Soldiers’ Pets, 167 Candleberry Circle, Hot Springs, AZ 71913. Ouimet Bros. Chapel (925) 682-4242
i don’t even have words anymore. it’s just so unfair.
Feb 4th, 2010 @ 5:48 pm
“You are never strong enough that you don’t need help.”
Cesar Chavez (via thoughtsdetained)Reblogged from thoughts detained.
